Dear Ayden...
As I update your blog today...
as I try to put in all those memories I had failed to pen down...
I realised so much has faded.
I am unable to remember as much details as I did for your brother Asher back then.
Forgive me. I think I have slackened so much. I am really so sorry, sweetheart.
No words can express the kind of guilt I feel. Why why why...why did I fail to do it?
Last month when breastmilk supply suddenly dropped drastically...I was sOOOOoooO anxious.
Our fridge BM storage running super low and the production is pathetically little. I was so frantically worried. I went to google about it...so it is because of the return of my menses.
I don't recall it happened when menses returned 9 months after Asher's birth. Milk supply probably wasnt that bad. Anyway, then I tried to pump every now and then, latch you on more.
Lucky lucky, efforts didnt go down the drain...supply came back after a week of hard work...
Now I am so relieved.
You are such a cute and adorable baby.
Everywhere we go, definitely some strangers will just comment about your cuteness and you are simply awesome with giving generous smiles without fail...
:)
Whereas when Kor Kor followed me practically everywhere I went last time, you dont have that luxury...since I have to take care of Kor Kor nowadays.
Kor Kor definitely has been to more places as a baby compared with you.
But, you have a Kor Kor to play with right from birth!
:)
You gain some, you lose some.
We are lucky we have a great helper, Auntie Elizabeth who joined our family on 10th July 2010.
She has been a great help in the family so far and we have to thank Auntie Joanne Loh for introducing her to mummy and taking note for mummy when she was on her own maid search!
Thank you Auntie Joanne!!
We are sOOOOOo blessed!
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Mummy's Voice: Life Goes On!
I acknowledge I am the EMOTIONAL FREAK who
never fails to let my tears flow like a running tap
at the slightest touch to my heart...
at the slightest moment of my helplessness...
at the slightest unjust I feel...
Despite that, I am still very much a RATIONAL person....hmm a woman who
at times is just like a little girl laughing away to my heart's content so genuinely and
at times with no choice but to shoulder all the tasks and overcome the obstacles ahead independently...
The devil in me always tell me...it is no use one.
But
The angel in me always tell me...it is ok, just do your best, put in your heart and soul...
one day time will tell.
Will time really time? I doubt so.
Anyway, someone just reminded me...as long as I have done my best, nothing against my conscience, I dont have to care about anything much outside that. Many times, human beings are selfish...only thinking for themselves without sparing a thought for others.
Those quiet ones are the most harmful ones!
As for now, don't think so much anymore. Don't dwell on the past anymore.
Just move on. LIFE GOES ON.
Generate all my efforts for my family.
For my 2 precious, simply adorable Baby...Baby Asher, Baby Ayden!
Generate all my efforts for my personal aims and work and my hubby!
jia you!!!
never fails to let my tears flow like a running tap
at the slightest touch to my heart...
at the slightest moment of my helplessness...
at the slightest unjust I feel...
Despite that, I am still very much a RATIONAL person....hmm a woman who
at times is just like a little girl laughing away to my heart's content so genuinely and
at times with no choice but to shoulder all the tasks and overcome the obstacles ahead independently...
The devil in me always tell me...it is no use one.
But
The angel in me always tell me...it is ok, just do your best, put in your heart and soul...
one day time will tell.
Will time really time? I doubt so.
Anyway, someone just reminded me...as long as I have done my best, nothing against my conscience, I dont have to care about anything much outside that. Many times, human beings are selfish...only thinking for themselves without sparing a thought for others.
Those quiet ones are the most harmful ones!
As for now, don't think so much anymore. Don't dwell on the past anymore.
Just move on. LIFE GOES ON.
Generate all my efforts for my family.
For my 2 precious, simply adorable Baby...Baby Asher, Baby Ayden!
Generate all my efforts for my personal aims and work and my hubby!
jia you!!!
Thursday, September 16, 2010
9 months old baby!
Just a few weeks difference and I am so different...
suddenly I seemed very very keen to start walking...unlike before when all I wanted was just to crawl ,crawl, crawl.
Mummy always say I am a clingy baby unlike Asher Kor Kor back then....
Now I have a nickname... "SUPERGLUE BABY".
I am eager to talk...always babbling these days.
Able to walk from one end of the play yard to the other end, holding onto the play yard..
1 pair front teeth at the bottom row fully erupted...1 pair of teeth on top row half erupted..
I can pass things from 1 hand to the other smoothly..
I have been drinking well from the learning cup..
I am also very eager to try new tastes and occasionally gets a small treat of food outside my baby food..when the adults are eating something...if they don't give it to me..I will "demand" for it! :D
Oh and I am also happy to watch TV hahahahhaha....
whenever Mummy walks past me without carrying me...I will CRY CRY very loudly for her.
Every Wednesday morning, I will follow Kor Kor to the playgym and have some activity fun!
Tue, Thur, Fri mornings Mummy will hand me over to Auntie Beth 8plus AM and I won't get to see her until lunchtime as she has to send Kor Kor to school and will return only 12plus pm.
That's when we have lunch together...
Once or twice a week, we have a short 20mins "football" session together with Kor Kor Asher, Auntie Beth and followed by an outdoor pool bath time before our afternoon nap.
Hmm...now I am old enough..Mummy is considering to start playing play painting too...
Anyway, Mummy tries to bring us out for outdoor field trips as often..and try to get Daddy to come along...so location got to be convenient for him...
We went to Pasir Ris Park for picnic and sand play! And Daddy came by! :)
I have never been into pacifier, unlike Kor Kor Asher...see even my pacifier I also gave it to him
suddenly I seemed very very keen to start walking...unlike before when all I wanted was just to crawl ,crawl, crawl.
Mummy always say I am a clingy baby unlike Asher Kor Kor back then....
Now I have a nickname... "SUPERGLUE BABY".
I am eager to talk...always babbling these days.
Able to walk from one end of the play yard to the other end, holding onto the play yard..
1 pair front teeth at the bottom row fully erupted...1 pair of teeth on top row half erupted..
I can pass things from 1 hand to the other smoothly..
I have been drinking well from the learning cup..
I am also very eager to try new tastes and occasionally gets a small treat of food outside my baby food..when the adults are eating something...if they don't give it to me..I will "demand" for it! :D
Oh and I am also happy to watch TV hahahahhaha....
whenever Mummy walks past me without carrying me...I will CRY CRY very loudly for her.
Every Wednesday morning, I will follow Kor Kor to the playgym and have some activity fun!
Tue, Thur, Fri mornings Mummy will hand me over to Auntie Beth 8plus AM and I won't get to see her until lunchtime as she has to send Kor Kor to school and will return only 12plus pm.
That's when we have lunch together...
Once or twice a week, we have a short 20mins "football" session together with Kor Kor Asher, Auntie Beth and followed by an outdoor pool bath time before our afternoon nap.
Hmm...now I am old enough..Mummy is considering to start playing play painting too...
Anyway, Mummy tries to bring us out for outdoor field trips as often..and try to get Daddy to come along...so location got to be convenient for him...
We went to Pasir Ris Park for picnic and sand play! And Daddy came by! :)
oh? where is mummy's head?
I have never been into pacifier, unlike Kor Kor Asher...see even my pacifier I also gave it to him
then she saw this plastic piece of wrapper in my mouth and got Mummy to get it out!
SO SCARY! See what babies are capable of...
:( Mummy "told me off" ... "NO Ayden!"
I am now more capable of distinguishing and expressing different feelings
I am now more capable of distinguishing and expressing different feelings
Mummy and I
Auntie Beth took this few shots for me when Mummy was out with Kor Kor Asher...
We love these shots...
We love these shots...
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